Expansion into Full Creative Expression
I'm more than just one type of artist. I create more than just watercolor paintings, digital illustrations, expressive figure drawings, immersive VR/AR exhibitions. The challenge I’ve had with all of these labels is that I truly don’t feel that any of them really encompass who I am as a full creative person.
Yes, I’m very well versed in creating art pieces with new technology. I’m also very well versed in visual storytelling with one static 2D image.
The things that are less visible….
Discomfort in Peace
I want a Life of fulfillment, with a sense of abundance, of belonging, joy, peace, protection, safety, love, and always with a dog.
It means getting used to the peace. It means riding the discomfort of my neurological system literally rewriting and rewiring itself to a Life of safety and stability.
It means letting go of the things that don’t align nor match with that.
It means leading with my nervous system
It means leading with….
Not Yours to Hold
It was never yours to hold
I’m sorry we placed that into you
The belief that you could be the only one to help us
It wasn’t yours
And we’re sorry
It was our chaos. It was our pain, our frustration, our mayhem…
Samatha
The daily creative work isn’t just about skill-building. It actually is not that at all.
It’s about showing up as myself, to myself, with my creativity. Honoring the authenticity of what and how I want to create as an expression of myself in the moment.
It takes a lot of mental fortitude to have gotten here - to break out of the high level expectations of my ArtCenter upbringing, to turn down the perfectionist voice. I frankly couldn’t have done this without regular art therapy sessions, which has taught me to make simply because I feel like it. This has required a lot of self-trust, discipline, and grounding to remember that my art is mine. And I can make it however I desire and please.
Whether it be a pencil, watercolor, VR, whatever new tech thingy, these are all mediums of my creation. I span and stretch the spectrum of creation….
A Moment to Feel
Learning to step away from intensity,
To take moments to sit in my quiet,
To allow myself to just be silent in my mind and being.
Even when it’s good intensity with lots of social time and exertion with friends,
I still need to carve time and space for myself….
the simplicity of life
Wake up • Take care of my morning needs • Exercise • Take Bryan out • Make a delicious nutritious bfast for myself • Daily paintings + meditations • Attend to the garden • Work • Check-in with friends • Time with P • Hang with friends over delicious food • Adventure with Bryan • Rest over music, art, trash tv, reflect • Sleep a lot <3 ….
Worth Making
I remember thinking, “I’m not good enough.
I’m not creative enough.
I’m not abstract enough.
I’m not original enough.”
and the list could go on.
I would see other artists’ work and wonder….
the other side of grief
I am incredibly lucky to have the life that I do.
As I get a bit older, I do believe I am very, very lucky. I feel I have guardians that protect me. I feel that I have a strong compass of what I believe is right and wrong. I am extremely grateful for the deck I’ve been dealt - to have safety in many forms, to have love in SO many forms, to have opportunities, and to have the innate optimism and discipline to make more opportunities for myself, too. I have a lot of supporters, I have a tremendous support system.
I am lucky to be gifted an ability and openness to feel deep connection with nature, humanity, and the things beyond our physical realm.
Perhaps that’s why VR feels natural to me. It’s an extension of how I feel - in my body AND externally out into the world(s) around me….
worthy of calm
Do you believe you are worthy of calm?Do you believe you are worthy and deserving of the calm + peaceful life you desire?
I’m learning to shed the need for immense intensity, chaos, unpredictability….
old grooves
who do you give access to your nervous system?
whose words and actions are allowed to access your core?
miss bryan
Every day, I soak in how much life has changed since having Bryan in my life. She's my little sidekick, my confidante, an incredibly cute wellness reminder who follows me around.
Her lighthearted outlook on life is infectious. And I’m determined to ensure she has the best life possible….
- 2.5D 5
- Animation 5
- Art 72
- Augmented Reality 3
- Botanical Studies 9
- Bryan 6
- Creative Entrepreneurship 1
- Daily Creative Practice 51
- Design School 5
- Designing a Sustainable Life 3
- Health 3
- Horticulture 9
- Plein Air 1
- Process Documentation 1
- Process Visualization 2
- Readings 4
- Resources 6
- Virtual Reality 6
- Writings on Life 40