Discomfort in Peace
It’s not something I heard much before: learning how to ride the discomfort waves when Life becomes stable, predictable, and secure.
It makes sense: the more I’ve been doing daily meditations and daily paintings, I’ve been signaling to my mind+body that I am safe every day, that things are SO good. Every previous version of Estella gets to have a chance to express herself - freely. My studio has become a needed, protected, and cherished sanctuary. Wellness + creativity go hand-in-hand.
“What do you want?
How bad do you want it?”
I want a Life of fulfillment, with a sense of abundance, of belonging, joy, peace, protection, safety, love, and always with a dog.
It means getting used to the peace. It means riding the discomfort of my neurological system literally rewriting and rewiring itself to a Life of safety and stability.
It means letting go of the things that don’t align nor match with that.
It means leading with my nervous system
It means leading with my spirituality - trusting the feelings I have connected with my ancestors, the trust I have in the cosmos and higher powers greater than me.
It means leading with my creativity - authentically, genuine to my (complex lol) creative process.
It means leading with honesty.
It means leading with FLOW: purpose • creativity • peace • connection • spirituality. FLOW connects me to something larger than my Self.
I totally asked Claude about this lol
I do think I’m entering a phase of my life where I’m focused on making art and design for me. I know I’m an exceptional designer at creating experiences for others. That doesn’t go away.
But there’s certainly something shifting in me - as I become more settled in my peaceful life - to make with a deeper sense of purpose - starting with me at the center of that creativity. It has to.