Estella Tse 7/2/25 Estella Tse 7/2/25

you can’t save everybody

Being with ultra compassionate and empathy-driven friends, this is something we’ve been learning — and still struggle with.

Or maybe that people can be saved - but not by me.

There’s a limit of what can be done; there’s a limit of how much can be given; there’s a limit to capability and capacity.

I spoke tenderly to a friend last week about how there’s a part of me that wanted to be the hero. I wanted to take pride in being the savior. There’s so much history loaded there with my role in my family and the pain I wanted to take away (and absorb!!!) from my parents. If I could hold it, maybe they wouldn’t have to suffer. I was young, I had so much capacity, I could be their container.

I think that showed up in some of my hardest moments in life, too.

If I don’t have needs or wants, I could make sure others will be released from their suffering.

Martyr mentality! WHOOF!!!…….

Estella Tse 6/30/25 Estella Tse 6/30/25

Cultivating a Creative Practice

Since I began my daily meditation + painting practice, I’ve had these post-its around me.

To lessen the pressure of “doing things right,” perfectionism, and immediately think about making things into sellable products, it helped to focus on CURIOSITY.

What happens if I do this?
What if I show up every morning and do this?
How can I engage in PLAY with my creativity again?
WHAT is my creativity right now?

It’s clear my creative endeavors rarely stay stagnant. Likely the reason why I love working in Innovation — I never get bored!

But my goal right now isn’t to hustle and chase the unachievable. My goal right now is to create a sustainable, long-lasting life….

Estella Tse 6/18/25 Estella Tse 6/18/25

wisdom from my future self

Where am I?

What am I like?

What do I love to do?

What advice could I give my present self?

Have FUN! Go swim in the river!

You’ve already gotten so far in becoming yourself.

You still have youth, health, vivacity!

Your visions, ideas, inventions won’t disappear. Things can rest for a day or two.

You’re on the right track….

Estella Tse 6/17/25 Estella Tse 6/17/25

i’m creating my own ecoSYSTEM

One with less hustle.
One with less dehumanizing.
One that embraces natural rhythms of inspiration, rest, incubation, creation, research, down time, space for mental rollercoasters, exploration, gardening, doing things just because, and joy-filled days.

I believe it’s possible.
I believe I can design that for myself.

I’m creating a system….

Estella Tse 6/16/25 Estella Tse 6/16/25

What does a SUSTAINABLE life look like for me?

I’m speaking less about eco-consciousness but rather about having a long-lasting, enduring, resilient system, way of living, way of being that continuously breathes and grows with me.

What are the BIG players for my ecosystem?…..

Estella Tse 6/5/25 Estella Tse 6/5/25

breathe easy

ahahahha going onto Instagram feels like I’m being pummeled with a barrage of sounds and stimulation - and I have deleted it from my phone already after making that one reel the other day. ahahhahaha

Things I’m learning to accept and understand about this phase right now:

I do much better with quiet
I do much better with controlled input to my nervous system, mind, attention, and focus
There’s no need to feel guilty or selfish for that. It just is.
My creativity and mental health THRIVES without the external noise.
My creativity and mental health THRIVES in my day-to-day life with……

Estella Tse 6/3/25 Estella Tse 6/3/25

can there be a new way of making things?

How might I move away from social media to engage with my audience?

Is it possible to build a brand in the modern era without exploiting the attention, social media addiction, and (already diminishing) energy of my followers and supporters?

I want to create to nourish, to replenish, to provide reprieve for my friends, family, and followers of my work. How might I do that?

And - can my art do that for people?

Estella Tse 5/28/25 Estella Tse 5/28/25

Power in Compounding

Taking learnings in financial wealth building - it’s about compounding. The key to building a strong, stable foundation. A little at a time goes a long way.

Part of my mental health and creative practice integration means I still need to meditate and paint freely several times a week to show my mind + body + soul that I’m here for it. That inner Estella can still create and BE as she desires, even with the flurry of exciting huge things in the winds….

Estella Tse 5/22/25 Estella Tse 5/22/25

Every morning is an opportunity for a new start

No one is stopping you.

No one is making the rules.

You can change, set into motion, change, and BE whoever you want to be - TODAY.

No need to ask for permission. You just can.

Your life is your own. Your path is your own.

What will you do with the opportunity before you?

Estella Tse 5/19/25 Estella Tse 5/19/25

There’s No Perfectionism in Buddhism.

The answer isn’t in doing this right.

Remember to sit in the quiet - the yin.

You’ll find your answers within.

You’ll find your answers withyin LOLOLOLHELP….

Estella Tse 5/16/25 Estella Tse 5/16/25

Rewiring Neurosystems

The early stages of moving from Scorpio South Node (intensity, transformation) to Taurus North Node (stability, embodiment) often involve creating structured routines as a necessary foundation. However, the mature expression of Taurus energy isn't rigidity but adaptable stability—like a tree that's firmly rooted yet flexible enough to bend with the wind.

From a neurobiological perspective, this is part of the recalibration process. Your nervous system first needs consistent routines to establish safety, but eventually needs to develop flexibility within stability….

Estella Tse 5/9/25 Estella Tse 5/9/25

Expansion into Full Creative Expression

I'm more than just one type of artist. I create more than just watercolor paintings, digital illustrations, expressive figure drawings, immersive VR/AR exhibitions. The challenge I’ve had with all of these labels is that I truly don’t feel that any of them really encompass who I am as a full creative person.

Yes, I’m very well versed in creating art pieces with new technology. I’m also very well versed in visual storytelling with one static 2D image.

The things that are less visible….