Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Mending

Art therapy sesh piece.

Trying to understand why I’ve been in a trauma / depressive state the last few weeks. It’s been a rough go.

I spoke about this conflict of knowing intellectually that slowing down and doing nourishing things are good for me.

And then it gets to a point where I feel like I’m Good™. I no longer need the crutch of “wellness” practices because….

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I am worthy of peace and calm.

I am worthy of feeling fulfilled in slow, meaningful actions.

I can let go of the trauma hustle, the intensity and chaos.

I deserve stability and deep joy.

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Untitled

mostly still in pain
still trying to be gentle with myself, allowing myself to BE.
not forcing or pressuring one way or another.

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Do you think a Depressed person could make this?🙄

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Untitled Splats

CPTSD means the pains hurt a lot on some days - in ever fiber. And it's a lot of resting, compassion, and LETTING myself.

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Reintegration

For some reason, we're taught to segment our Selves into boxes: work, home, friend, daughter, online, in-person, etc.

Bravery in weaving it all back together.

We were never meant to be split up to begin with...

Estella Tse 3/24/25 Estella Tse 3/24/25

Burn-Out

Whoof! The last two weeks have been a rough go. I’ve been pushing hard with my entrepreneur ideas and likely burnt myself out pretty hard.

Some old habits are hard to break. The hustle fire was the attitude that fueled my successes, and it’s deeply engrained in me to feverishly work with tunnel-vision to achieve my goals.

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Grounders, Spinners, Dreamers

Some folks are grounded - connected to the Earth. Others are spinning around in their own heads. And us dreamers are floating around into space LOL

Estella Tse 3/10/25 Estella Tse 3/10/25

Behind the Fog

On Day 86 of daily meditation + painting, I started blending layers a bit more.

I painted the cloudy Depression layer, cut holes with exact-o knife…

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Most Influential Books for My Career

“How did you become a VR artist?”

”Well, when I was 5 years old…..”

Umm! I mean, hello!!

There’s no way I would have known my path would lead me to be an internationally known and desired VR/AR artist! Most people in the world still have yet to put on a virtual reality headset, let alone fathom what an artist does in a face computer….

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Re-emerging from a four year hermit hole

Hello, World! My, oh, my. Attending Art Center was no easy feat. Since I found out I got admitted to the college in early 2012, I made a conscious decision to cut out a lot of things in order to fully commit and focus on my intense new program.

A lot happened, and I ended up cutting out a lot of things I never anticipated to. I guess that's what happens when you go into a rigorous grad-esque program. But I'm grateful to say that I came out with a better idea of who I am, my intentions in life, and how I want to continue on with the rest of my life….

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Understanding the Self-Critic

This last year, I've been diving in full-throttle in identity work and self betterment. This investigation has required a tremendous amount of deconstruction, reconstruction, and a deep sense of self awareness. Here are some findings. So, I'm a Tiger Daughter. I was raised with a perfectionist Tiger Mom who expected a lot of her kids, who really wanted us to take on a lot and be tough asses. And we did. Well, at least my brothers were fantastic at the hard sciences. I wasn't. I was good at.... err... drawing, and... watching people….