Burn-Out

Whoof! The last two weeks have been a rough go. I’ve been pushing hard with my entrepreneur ideas and likely burnt myself out pretty hard.

Some old habits are hard to break. The hustle fire was the attitude that fueled my successes, and it’s deeply engrained in me to feverishly work with tunnel-vision to achieve my goals.

Albeit difficult and crippling at times, my CPTSD has taught me a lot about living sustainably.

Less intensity.
More slow, methodical, intentional moves.

Less proving my worth.
More being and allowing.

Slowing down is a challenge for me. Functioning with buffer to allow for hard days feels especially gratuitous and often unacceptable to me.

Yes yes, to others, this sounds like I am very hard on myself.
To me: this seems like the baseline? I don’t usually grasp when ppl say I’m being very hard on myself.

Instead of a blazing fire, I’m learning how to keep a steady, consistent, reliable, long-burning fire.

A new type of goal: “Seek purpose and meaning in the slower, calmer things in Life.”