Estella Tse 6/18/25 Estella Tse 6/18/25

wisdom from my future self

Where am I?

What am I like?

What do I love to do?

What advice could I give my present self?

Have FUN! Go swim in the river!

You’ve already gotten so far in becoming yourself.

You still have youth, health, vivacity!

Your visions, ideas, inventions won’t disappear. Things can rest for a day or two.

You’re on the right track….

Estella Tse 6/17/25 Estella Tse 6/17/25

i’m creating my own ecoSYSTEM

One with less hustle.
One with less dehumanizing.
One that embraces natural rhythms of inspiration, rest, incubation, creation, research, down time, space for mental rollercoasters, exploration, gardening, doing things just because, and joy-filled days.

I believe it’s possible.
I believe I can design that for myself.

I’m creating a system….

Estella Tse 6/16/25 Estella Tse 6/16/25

What does a SUSTAINABLE life look like for me?

I’m speaking less about eco-consciousness but rather about having a long-lasting, enduring, resilient system, way of living, way of being that continuously breathes and grows with me.

What are the BIG players for my ecosystem?…..

Estella Tse 6/2/25 Estella Tse 6/2/25

ain’t no saint

“WELP. I BREATHED. I’M DONE MEDITATING.”

It’s okay to be hella impatient with painting and ‘breathing’ on some days 😂😂😂 I’m no fuckin saint LOL

This was a fun little chinese brush experiment. I did one wash all the way around the paper. I dropped some more thicker ink at the center, and moved the paper around in different angles to get the ink to flow along the spiral - using gravity and momentum to move the ink along. Fun little doodle to play with.

Estella Tse 5/16/25 Estella Tse 5/16/25

Rewiring Neurosystems

The early stages of moving from Scorpio South Node (intensity, transformation) to Taurus North Node (stability, embodiment) often involve creating structured routines as a necessary foundation. However, the mature expression of Taurus energy isn't rigidity but adaptable stability—like a tree that's firmly rooted yet flexible enough to bend with the wind.

From a neurobiological perspective, this is part of the recalibration process. Your nervous system first needs consistent routines to establish safety, but eventually needs to develop flexibility within stability….

Estella Tse 4/9/25 Estella Tse 4/9/25

blueskies

Estella Tse 4/7/25 Estella Tse 4/7/25

old grooves

who do you give access to your nervous system?
whose words and actions are allowed to access your core?

Estella Tse 4/2/25 Estella Tse 4/2/25

miss bryan

Every day, I soak in how much life has changed since having Bryan in my life. She's my little sidekick, my confidante, an incredibly cute wellness reminder who follows me around.

Her lighthearted outlook on life is infectious. And I’m determined to ensure she has the best life possible….

Estella Tse 3/31/25 Estella Tse 3/31/25

Solar Plexus

"Imagine a warm, yellow sun above your abdomen - radiating warmth all around you."

Shed her old, ancient thoughts of self-doubt and judgement.
Proving is a lack of believing.
Start DOING and BEING - simply because you ARE.

Estella Tse 3/29/25 Estella Tse 3/29/25

forgiveness

beauty in the grief.
beauty in the loss.

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Mending

Art therapy sesh piece.

Trying to understand why I’ve been in a trauma / depressive state the last few weeks. It’s been a rough go.

I spoke about this conflict of knowing intellectually that slowing down and doing nourishing things are good for me.

And then it gets to a point where I feel like I’m Good™. I no longer need the crutch of “wellness” practices because….

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

I am worthy of peace and calm.

I am worthy of feeling fulfilled in slow, meaningful actions.

I can let go of the trauma hustle, the intensity and chaos.

I deserve stability and deep joy.