Estella Tse 1/21/26 Estella Tse 1/21/26

Integrity

Doing what’s right even when it’s hard

Morning meditations.
Doodling a shrub in the neighbor’s yard. Ponderings.

Estella Tse 1/20/26 Estella Tse 1/20/26

Serene Scene at a Canyon

I’m still rusty from drawing outta my imagination. This is a quickie doodle while doing meditation, still using this art generator prompt.

I feel like there’s so much chunky rust to break off. I haven’t gotten into day-to-day drawing yet but I’m not trying to be too hard on myself. Slowly but surely.

I do feel the difference on the days I meditate + draw versus when I don’t.

It’s easy to skip it. It’s easy to convince myself there’s something more important, like an email, a deadline, an Instagram DM lol

But my wiser self knows that there’s few things more fruitful than me taking a quiet few mins to sit with myself, express an idea, to keep practicing that every day -> and publishing it to completely my full creative cycle.

Onward!

Estella Tse 1/19/26 Estella Tse 1/19/26

Mixed Brain Stew

Oh - no wonder it feels like brain stew!

It’s like I have a bajillion thoughts and feelings happening at once - and it’s all in disconcerting mashed synchronicity lol

One of the skills I’ve learned from art therapy is even when it’s bleggghh and I’m feeling bluarrrggghhh, I spend a few mins to get it out of my body. Let my impulses lead: what medium do I want to use? what color? what shape? what mark next? And just let it play out, step by step.

And …. I do feel better afterwards.

The process of externalizing it out of me helps
The process of separating out each of the feelings / thoughts helps
Then being able to LOOK at it objectively outside of myself helps

Estella Tse 1/6/26 Estella Tse 1/6/26

Favorite Time of Day

I’m digging just the loose red pen doodles. I’m listening to meditations while I do this. I didn’t want to “over commit” with the black pen today - it came out so much more pronounced than I intended. Mostly because I was trying out a new black felt tip pen.

I stuck with a wizardy character - with a cane.

My favorite time of day?
The best days are watching the sunset over the Pacific Ocean. Never gets old.

Estella Tse 1/5/26 Estella Tse 1/5/26

A Magician in the Woods

I know I’m at a point with my creative practice where I need to strengthen my drawing skills again. I’ve been mostly focusing on watercolor in 2025 for fluid and freeing expression. And I want to strengthen my articulation of moments, scenes, storytelling.

Obviously, I have a tremendous amount of skill illustrating a la ArtCenter and professional life.

But who am I and how do I want to articulate marks on a page?
This will be my investigation and inward exploration.

Estella Tse 12/18/25 Estella Tse 12/18/25

What Do You Want to Create?

What do you want to make real with your pen?

What worlds are you creating?

Technique, expertise - everything aside,
WHAT do you want to MAKE?

Estella Tse 12/17/25 Estella Tse 12/17/25

Getting Back Into Drawing

This last year, I focused a lot on expressing myself with watercolors and paints - fluidity of hues and pigment with water. I do feel that I’m at a point where I need to revisit my pen drawing skills again. It’s been many years since I’ve felt “fluent” and ease with drawing. And, like how I did with painting, I want to explore and discover who I am with pen at this stage of my life.

How do you want to create images?
How do you feel authentic with pen?

Estella Tse 12/4/25 Estella Tse 12/4/25

Sagittarius Season

Trust in the ease of fulfillment and desires to come your way.

The first 40 years of your life has been one of learning, undoing, achieving, discovering, becoming.

You’ve arrived in the foundation of your best life.

Everything from here is maintaining + progressively building — the way you were meant to. From a place of calm, intentionality, assured, genuinely and honestly. And with deep rooted values of HOW to do and design life, business, friendships, life partnership, everyday life.

There’s TIME for patience.
There’s ENERGY for slow, intentional decisions.
There’s plenty of opportunities ahead. I know this because I have done this before - many times over…………

Estella Tse 10/30/25 Estella Tse 10/30/25

Transmute

Estella Tse 10/27/25 Estella Tse 10/27/25

Esteeming Oneself

I’ve been having a bout of poor self esteem, and I’m revisiting my Codependency healing work.

One of the main symptoms of codependency is maladaptive self-esteeming.

”Plus One” (+1) or “Minus One” (-1) is what my therapist calls it. My job this week is to observe and focus on the moments when I’m +1 or -1 -ing myself.

Both come from a place of insecurity and ‘malfunction’ (so to say).

-1 is the more common one for me:

Others know more and better than me
Other people’s goals, wants, desires, needs come first before mine
My words and contributions have less weight than others’………

Estella Tse 9/30/25 Estella Tse 9/30/25

The Inner Voices

These aren’t real mushrooms
It’s not accurate
Someone’s going to point out that xyz are wrong
Your colors are off
Your composition is redundant
Position things better
That’s not what moss looks like
That’s not how moss behaves
This isn’t even real
You’re never gonna become xyzblahblahblahblahblah
No one will take you seriously
Your art sux
Your creativity is boring
You’re unoriginal
You’re boring

Estella Tse 9/29/25 Estella Tse 9/29/25

Autumn Begins

This Cali girl is not ready!!
I literally only have tank tops and shorts in my drawers and haven’t done the wardrobe switch yet 😭

Things I’m looking forward to:

Taking the season to be more inward
Cozy time = more time being with myself, my little family, and close friends
Prepping for the joys and celebrations of holiday season