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Mending

Art therapy sesh piece.

Trying to understand why I’ve been in a trauma / depressive state the last few weeks. It’s been a rough go.

I spoke about this conflict of knowing intellectually that slowing down and doing nourishing things are good for me.

And then it gets to a point where I feel like I’m Good™. I no longer need the crutch of “wellness” practices because….

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I am worthy of peace and calm.

I am worthy of feeling fulfilled in slow, meaningful actions.

I can let go of the trauma hustle, the intensity and chaos.

I deserve stability and deep joy.

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mostly still in pain
still trying to be gentle with myself, allowing myself to BE.
not forcing or pressuring one way or another.

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Layers of Being

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botanical studies: carex oshimensis 'everillo’

carex oshimensis 'everillo'
sedge

perennial • zones 5-9

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botanical studies: saxifraga x geum 'dentata'

saxifraga x geum 'dentata'

perennial • zones 6-8

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Do you think a Depressed person could make this?🙄

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Untitled Splats

CPTSD means the pains hurt a lot on some days - in ever fiber. And it's a lot of resting, compassion, and LETTING myself.

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Reintegration

For some reason, we're taught to segment our Selves into boxes: work, home, friend, daughter, online, in-person, etc.

Bravery in weaving it all back together.

We were never meant to be split up to begin with...

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botanical studies: persicaria amplexicaulis 'golden arrow'

persicaria amplexicaulis 'golden arrow'
mountain fleece

perennial • zones 4b-7b

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Burn-Out

Whoof! The last two weeks have been a rough go. I’ve been pushing hard with my entrepreneur ideas and likely burnt myself out pretty hard.

Some old habits are hard to break. The hustle fire was the attitude that fueled my successes, and it’s deeply engrained in me to feverishly work with tunnel-vision to achieve my goals.

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botanical studies: actaea (cimicifuga) racemosa 'Brunette'

actaea (cimicifuga) racemosa 'Brunette'
bugbane

perennial • zones 4-9