Untitled Splats
CPTSD means the pains hurt a lot on some days - in ever fiber. And it's a lot of resting, compassion, and LETTING myself.
Reintegration
For some reason, we're taught to segment our Selves into boxes: work, home, friend, daughter, online, in-person, etc.
Bravery in weaving it all back together.
We were never meant to be split up to begin with...
botanical studies: persicaria amplexicaulis 'golden arrow'
persicaria amplexicaulis 'golden arrow'
mountain fleece
perennial • zones 4b-7b
Burn-Out
Whoof! The last two weeks have been a rough go. I’ve been pushing hard with my entrepreneur ideas and likely burnt myself out pretty hard.
Some old habits are hard to break. The hustle fire was the attitude that fueled my successes, and it’s deeply engrained in me to feverishly work with tunnel-vision to achieve my goals.
botanical studies: actaea (cimicifuga) racemosa 'Brunette'
actaea (cimicifuga) racemosa 'Brunette'
bugbane
perennial • zones 4-9
botanical studies: disporum cantoniense 'night heron'
disporum cantoniense 'night heron'
chinese fairy bells
perennial • zones 6-9
botanical studies: pulmonaria
pulmonaria
lungwort
perennial • zones 3-8 • part to full shade
botanical studies: ligularia dentata
ligularia dentata
leopard plant
perennial • zones 4-8 • part to full shade
botanical studies: aruncus aethusifolius
aruncus aethusifolius
dwarf goat's beard
perennial • zones 4-8 • full to part-sun
Grounders, Spinners, Dreamers
Some folks are grounded - connected to the Earth. Others are spinning around in their own heads. And us dreamers are floating around into space LOL
Behind the Fog
On Day 86 of daily meditation + painting, I started blending layers a bit more.
I painted the cloudy Depression layer, cut holes with exact-o knife…